Hectic...

Yesterday, I  was privileged to be given the opportunity to do the sharing of the Word with the young people. I have always enjoyed being able to share the Word in whatever capacity I was in but this time, it was different. I really have to really prioritize my tight time schedule so that I don't mess up while continuing to do what I need to do for the coming days. In whatever capacity or responsibilities given to me, I would just do my best , hope for the best and leave the rest in the hands of my Maker..

The last few days prior to this speaking arrangement were hectic. There was just never ending meetings , energy sapping and mind boggling ( sometimes to the verge of insanity & absolute retarded ) discussions plus arrangements for a friend's visit. Like I said, in everything I do, I just tried to do my best. So, in between discussions and meetings, I tried looking for restaurants & places of interest to bring my friend from KL to go to. Needless to say, my friend has her preferences when it comes to food choices and  place of interest; and so, I just went on to do what I needed to do. Then, in the midst of it all, I received a SMS asking me if I could help out in a Sunday sharing which I gladly took up as any chance I could get to inspire the young people is fine with me. On top of it, there's an exam to study for ( ISOM T4 class )  which consisted of 25 very difficult questions if you have not been reading the materials.  So, I juggled it all week and in between papers & pens , flying spectacles, raised voices, loggerheads decisions and staying calm, I realised that I was battling the "giants" in my life. That's how I received the inspiration to share the Word - "Facing Your Giants."

I guess, in many ways, I am so thankful to God for this very life of mine. I took some time off from work to study for the exams, prepare the notes for my sharing and then get ready for a splendid evening with this lovely friend of mine. I count it a privilege for me to do what I am able to do simply because I wouldn't want it any other way. In one night, I could be as confused and giddy as an Easter bunny on the street or at the concrete bench by the riverside while on the other hands, I could still prepare my sharing, pray in peace and deliver the message to the young people. I felt so pressured and boxed into a corner at times but blessed that I did not fall apart yet went through everything with great patience and calmness. When it was time for me to share the message to the young people, I shared my heart out. I would never know how the message would touch the young people but I have to take heart that I have shared the very best I could. Whether it will be an encouragement or not, I'll just have to believe that something good would help change these young lives.

I guess, I learnt that our responsibilities can be a huge thing on our shoulders. Would I change the circumstances I have to go through if I had the choice? I guess NOT. 

Mussings....

A little bird once told me that we all have in one way or another would have a blast in the past somehow though at times, I want to join the skeptics in their view. But somehow, it would come out one way or another and we just have to embrace that blast - good or bad. I want to say that I am no exception either. Though sometimes I do wish that they remain a buried blast in the past and whatever questions, fancies, fantasy, delights, pains, embarrassments or even "aha" moments go unanswered but I have to accept the fact that it does somehow comes up and the curiosity to get "answers" would be obtained when one meet up or own up with that person/persons from the past.

I must admit that for me, I just wanted to lie low and keep that part of my life quiet and live in the wonderful memories of times ; lest, flow with the changing tides and time but somehow, when you get the opportunity to meet the very people that you want to meet, you get all tongue-tied and feel like little dumb-ass from that era. So many questions to asks and so many answers to expect!  It was like that for me when I got the opportunity to meet up with this friend of mine last night. It was an opportunity and a night which I would cherish a lot. It was truly a poignant moment of being able to laugh, talk and reminiscent the times of our lives. Last night meeting brought us back to some 3 decades of innocent fun, laughter, disappointments, pains but most important of all, the sharing from our hearts of what had happened and the answering of the questions that plagued our minds in a good way all these years. It was really good to be able to meet up with this friend of mine. Really , really good indeed.  

One thing I have learned from the meeting last night was the tremendous respect we had for each other despite our differences in thoughts and actions, the lives we live with, the wonderful memories of fun, words of encouragement, the things we do for each other , the sarcasm , the teasing, the musings and the fussings. I guess, those are memories we will never be able to erase from our minds because they somehow shape our lives to move forward and to be a better person. I truly appreciate my friend's honesty, feisty & colourful character and the fickleness though sometimes, it irritates me like mad but that's who that person is. I do feel awkward and uncomfortable at times when certain questions were raised but I have so much respect for this person for the tenacity to survive in that person's life. I am glad that this friend of mine is in good hands and that comforted my heart a lot knowing how vulnerable that person could be. Though I truly must say with all honesty that I cannot endorse some of the views given but I respected that and told my friend that we are always presented with choices & consequences. I do hope this friend of mine would make a good decisions in her life. We will stay in touch with one another and just being friends to each other. I guess, we have enjoyed a wonderful evening of food, drinks and music but most important of all, we have enjoyed each others company. Nothing extravagant , yet simple & meaningful indeed.

BTW, my friend looked ravishingly beautiful and radiant in black. She say " it gives the illusion of a slimmer silhouette and the color suits her personality"!  Good looking indeed not that I looked intently but it is a compliment which I need to say when the fact warrants it. So, to my good friend - cherished and remembered!~