A Walk....

Today like any other morning of the week, I had a walk in the park. It’s the Melaka Botanical Garden and yes, I have been exercising and trying to get myself not to collapse somewhere and give hard times to the family. ( Yeah, I have tried very hard not to be morbid for heaven’s sake but I can’t help it. Sorry!).  Yeah, I have been conscious of my health some time back and ever since retiring, it has been good being able to exercise after such a long time of lockdowns, shutdowns and whatever downs that had been implemented.

Since hearing the sad news of a friend being in great sickness, I guess, my thoughts are with my friend and the family. Though I have not seen the family for quite some time, due to the lockdowns and so on,  my silent prayers are always with them eventhough,  I, too, struggled with my own set of worries, daily fixing of problems and struggles in my heart and mind. ( Do you realized that sometimes, life problems and circumstances just piled on you after you finish solving one? Arrrrgggghhhhhhhhh! )  I guess, I have hidden a lot of my struggles to myself and that’s why I do a lot of things in great silence. I guess, hearing the sad news earlier does prick my heart a lot and I really struggled today. I guess, walking down the route in the park today, being physically tired and chalking up more steps and distance were the furthest from my mind. Even though I know that I would be tired at three quarters of the way of my walk but today, I was still full of energy and posing lots of questions in my heart and mind to God. At the end of the walk, I was physically and mentally drained, I must admit. It was supposed to be “free and easy” but somehow, it didn’t feel like that but I still chalk up my distance, though. There are still positives, though, about the walk today. 

As the morning breeze glided past my chubby face, receeding hairline and ruffling my already short hair, I could not help but admire the beauty of my surrounding. Sure, it’s a secondary jungle and almost barren of wild animals but the tall trees, rustling leaves and the gentle morning dew does invigorate your soul, yunno. I guess, my walks in the park had always been praising God, prayer of blessings for my family and friends while occasionally, putting up “ I want” list to God. Feeble-minded human, right? I must say that walking in the park experience haven’t always been good always. During the walks, sometimes, you get the opportunity to smell a lot of ammonia like smell (usually from animals) , dead wood smell and sometimes, unpleasant body odor from fellow walkers! But there are times, you get sweet smelling perfumes, cut grass smell ( I love that smell! ) and even some real nice scent of raw plants. So, it is a sight, feel and smell experience when you take a walk in the park or a botanical garden, on this occasion. To me, the lush green and majestic trees are a sight to behold. I guess, in years to come with the present government we are having, we will one day experienced all this in a museum only! So much cutting down of tree even in a secondary jungle or so-called jungle lar! Of all the experiences thus far, listening to the chirping of the birds had been the most soothing for me amidst the call of the monkeys and the rough rummaging of the wild boars. There was once, about a few months back, I saw the sight of a mama wild boar and her two small babies and I really believe that it was a rare sighting indeed.

Coming back to the walks, I must say that the terrain ain’t a bad one nor challenging but it can be for some. To me, I do struggle a bit from time to time but I do genuinely enjoy the walk as I could sort of “throw” off my questions to God. I guess, I am eccentric in the sense that I would lift my hands to praise God whenever I reached a certain destination and at the end of the destination. I would always proclaimed “ God, you are so good ! Thank you for allowing me to finish my walk today and getting you off the hook for listening to me today!“ at the end of every walk before I meet up with my their other half of my challenge in life! Hahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Naughty! Naughty! Definitely NO breakfast today! All in all, I would fulfil my walk quota of 1 ½ turn round the park equating about 6km walk, I believe. To me, that is liberating and fun at the same time despite the huffing and puffing!

Jokes aside, walking in the park is just not for the exercise your body needs but somehow, it can be quite enriching in life too. I realized a good smile, a greeting of “Good morning” and a simple nod of acknowledgement of fellow walkers does brighten up not just their day but yours too. Somehow, it is a simple gesture of politeness but the echoes of that humble act rings and ripples far and wide results. It just warms the heart and I guess, a lot of us failed to realise that, right? So, come on, put a smile on your face and make it a good day for someone else, will you? Take out the sulkiness and replace it with a great big warm smile the next time you are walking in the park or any park for that matter. It doesn’t matter if these walkers or joggers are strangers. Some of them might just need a little kindness or some form of positivity for the start of the day. So, go out there and give them one, you hear?

Some of the questions that I keep asking God in my walks are, “ Why are you taking the good people away and leaving us with the “not so good “ ones to deal with, huh?” , “why does evil  thrive in our society today?” and “what do you want from me, God? “ Boy! I do have loads of questions , I tell you. I guess, these are my own genuine questions. I am not a scholar nor a genius in any way but just another simple minded man who do have questions like that in my mind. I am passionate about those questions and yet, I do feel that I am so far behind in understanding of the Lord’s domain.  In every of my sinful nature, I still humbly ask forgiveness from God every day of my life. Maybe, you will say that I am just being silly but I genuinely want to know. I guess, I will only get the answer when I get to above, right? Well, the fact remains that these are questions that are so relevant in our lives today. I couldn’t care less about money and that’s the furthest thing from my mind, if you know me but I can’t get around these questions. 

Yunno, I often marveled when I read the Bible of how God used to commune with the people directly and some people hearing from God directly during the ancient times. Is it happening in our generation? Yunno, how my soul longed for that audible voice from God ! I often asked the question too, “Am I that sinful and wretched, Lord that you won’t even whisper to me?” Yeah, it bugged me a lot and I start to pour over the internet searching for commentaries, reading the Word and reading more. I truly want to listen to God and hear from Him alone rather than going through all the nicks, turns and corners of questions and more questions. I guess, we all always wanted quick fix solutions, right? Yunno what, I came to realise that Mary did the right thing- sitting quietly and listening intently to every word of the Lord. Sometimes, we “rushed” so much and we failed miserably. We really need to wait patiently and pour over the Word again and again seeking the real meaning of  the Word and scripture. More often than not, we pick out the Word or scripture that suits us and our understanding when we should understand the purpose and intention intended by the Lord. We are a generation of laziness! Laziness in our reading and understanding of the Lord’s Word. We need to really ask the Lord to help us understand and deepened our soul to the Word and open our mind to think deeper and with more understanding of the context. That’s why I am grateful to be able to do my searches and teaching of the Word whenever possible as it gives me the opportunity to look up further and learn the Word with better understanding and in better depth of realization to the Word. Yes, I would suggest you do the same indeed. 

Right, that’s my thoughts after a walk in the park. It ain’t Einstein eureka moment, yunno but just another passionate walk in the park with a very passionate God too, I guess.   

Explanation satire

People say that “new year comes with new hopes” and with high hopes stacked heavily against this Tiger year, a lot of people are hoping to have a better year in terms of health, prosperity and daily living. Well, I hate to burst their bubble and I do intend to be “positive” in the best way I can be but I am really very skeptical. Excuse me for being a rebel rouser if I must but I really do not see any further improvements of the quality of life we are going to have. I can see only the rich getting richer while the poor getting poorer while the middle income getting down the brackets to the lower income. 

Like I said, you can throw all the knives and axes at me but it doesn’t take away the fact that people in power are fattening their pockets and lining up their banks with lots of ill-gotten gains these days. Worse of all, there is simply no shame nor any sign of remorse in what they are doing like plundering the nation’s coffers , stealing money from public funds and laughable feeble defence for such corruption and plundering ways. Get to the courts and make a mockery out of our justice system too. Corruption seemed to be the way of life and it’s okay to be corrupt, man. What a great justice system and fundamentally sound government. Our corruption buster agency is exemplary and the finest in the world indeed while our justice system is simply marvelous in ensuring the band of robbers stays on the path of robbing and plundering.  We are definitely the model for corruption practices. Simply no need for remorse and no need for shame at all! So, what does it leaves us , the general moronic public of this country? Let’s go vote these morons into office again! Yay! Bravo! Good for you! Back to our cavemen mentality, fight for our “agama and bangsa” arrogance and let’s put our country into the 3rd World country bracket and live up to our ”kais pagi,makan pagi ; kais petang, makan petang” mentality! 

So, what is the formula to stay positive for 2022? We steal everything from every living persons we have in this country and call it “ours”. We shout for blood and take a portion of everything in this country and feed our supporters till they choked and gurgled in death with ill gotten ways. In that way, we stay in power indefinitely and make sure , we sapu everything before the next moronic team takes over and try to make us live like paupers or at least, try to send us to the courts only to come back in power and make us free to plunder again. Only thing to be reminded is that :-  let’s be careful and not be killed by the Orang Utan who are damn fierce killers from the forest! Ah! By the way, our Malayan tigers like human meat as they grow older; so, we also have to be very careful as we grow older, chop trees down or play near the jungle. It is alright to cut trees down; the bigger the better but this time, let the young people do it. Old people cannot cut trees in jungle as tigers like old people meat. We should send our whole cabinet ministers in the jungle so that the tigers can eat them up. Yeah, our old Cabinet Ministers are more buttery, I guess. In that way, our tigers can get well fed, have their bedroom games and re-produce to re-stock our tiger stocks in the country. Yeah! It’s because they ate too little older people and that’s why they can’t re-produce faster. Also, I was informed that cleared areas makes it difficult for the tigers to do their Hindustan courtship dances around the trees and lest, the shortage of tigers. Maybe, just maybe, Musang King durian trees may excite the senses of the tigers and the Orang Utans these times. Afterall, we are all out for their conservation, are we not? Heaven forbides if we should lose our tigers with the shortages of trees! Maybe, we should cultivate taugeh trees to ensure the right camouflage for the tigers to mate! I dunno, you never try , you never know , right? 

Aunties & uncles, if you have not woken up from your slumber of corruption daily living, please be informed that the leaders of this country are skinning the hides off your asses as you turn over from your sleep. That is very normal of them to do it because their video equipment and recording while skinning your asses can be very blurry at times. Cannot see clearly who is doing it and what is it for. You get it or not?  Everything is taken from you under the pretense of “for the good of the country”. Wake up lar! Go and have a bowl of noodles and see how much it cost you today! Better still, go to the market and see how much does the chicken or beef cost! I don’t want to even touch on the fish prices as I deemed it as luxury these days to even eat ikan kembong/ selar or even kerisi. ( BTW, it is RM 17 -RM 22 a kilo ( retail ) , depending on where you are staying unless you catch the fishes yourself lor! ) BTW, tilapia fish also increase in price these days because their feed also too expensive and a lot of people use their feed to go fishing and catch other fishes. So, freshwater anglers and fishermen are also to be blamed for the increase in fish feeds which indirectly caused the costs of the freshwater fish to increase also ! Yeah!Yeah! With strong winds and tsunamis these days, boats cannot go out to sea and so, catch is small and therefore equates to small quantities and prices increase lor. Also, fishing nets are also very expensive these days while boat engines needs petrol/diesel. This one also equally expensive together with fish tongs, ice, transport and labour all add in to make the costs go up lah! You don’t know the hardship of the fisherman. Their jetty also kena reclaimed already. The sand kena korek and sold too. That’s why the fishes don’t come into the nets because no sandy area to mate and release eggs for reproduction which leads to less fish and more expensive lah.  Haiyah! Assam pedas ikan pari also RM 15 these days! Cannot complain because ikan pari needs sandy area and no sandy area how to catch them, right? Lay net, catch small fish equals cannot cari makan lor. Just like our MACC also – catch small fish but big fish let go. Hah! Something like that lar!

What about vegetables then? Please lar, please go to the market and get those greens and see the big increase. It is even more ridiculous when you see the prices of onions and garlic. It’s all explainable. The floods had caused a lot of vegetables to be destroyed and so, re-planting needs to be done. A lot of labour involved and nowadays, Banglas also want big money to work these days. So, costs go sky-rocket and now you know why the vegetables costs go up! That’s why we need to cut down more trees , open up new lands to plant vegetables and make vegetables cheaper lor!  If not, vegetables will be more expensive. Same with chicken also – we also need new lands and new labour to work in farms but at least, the chicken shit can be use as fertilizers. That’s the good point for the country to generate more production of chickens. But by the look of things, the two legged shapely chickens are flooding into the country more rather than the two legged featherly chickens!  Ah! By the way, the two legged shapely chickens no need to be prayed over , so not much cost involved – Open legs ; money come in / Show “half ball”, all senses go haywire – money come in!  ( Go to Thailand border and get the licence enough) while the other chickens needs to be prayed over, cut the throat, washed, cleaned, packed, transported and have certificate some more. All these are extra costs and so, that’s why chicken cost goes up too, brother! Also, feed costs also go up because the jagong they feed the chickens in our chicken farms are best in the world one and so, that costs also go up. The jagong are so yellow and good that our chickens meat looks slightly better looking  than the man lying in the iced box! So, they now try to get cheaper jagong or feeds to feed the chickens. If cannot , then maybe add more “fertilizer” to the chickens through magic chemicals and magic potions! All these are extra costs, yunno. It will shoot up the cost of poultry indefinitely! 

So, bottom line, with these clearly defined explanations,  I feel very “positive” for country  in the year 2022. NIAMAH!

Aftermath......

PRN Melaka 2021 ended yesterday evening and I guess, what is there to say, right? Except that the echoes of disappointment, a tinge of hopelessness and despair rings loud and lingers on. Everyone knows what the results were and all of the Melaka people would have to accept that decision made whether we like it or not. I guess, while some of us feel down, disappointed and agitated but let us not forget that there are others who are celebrating and revelling in joy and rightly so too. If there are winners in any competition; then of course , we have to be gracious in defeat too. For me, I congratulate the winners for they are chosen on the ballot paper. Whether they did it in the right manner or not the right manner, the results speak for themselves. Sure, we can all be sore losers , sour grapes and talk loudly at coffeeshop; straining our neck muscles and neck blood vessels by saying this and that but what is the point if we ourselves, do not even understand the fundamental basic of what voting is all about. If you do not turn up for voting, then, you are as guilty and as dumb as a piece of ass because you chose not to exercise your right as a citizen of this country. Then, you do not have the right to make any comments on the election process or even how good or how bad the state government if going to be. In all truth, you do not even have the right to make any noise because you did not even lift your bloody finger to the mark the ballot paper nor have the guts to do so. You are as good as an empty vessel with all your excuses and what not that is only known to you. 

Please, spare me your excuses of “what’s the point to vote if the assemblyman/woman would then jumped to another party?”, “what is there to vote for?”, “ Aiyoo! Covid-19 lah. Can you guarantee my family members would be safe?” (Dumbass, we will all die eventually and it is all in the hands of God, dumbass! ) ,“Ah! This fella will sure win in this constituent! “ bullshit etc etc.  My answer to you is :-  So what! These excuses are flimsy and irresponsible. I want to tell you that irrespective of all these excuses, first and foremost, you are to exercise that right to vote - Who you vote is none of my concern but just come out to vote and the next thing is to do the right thing on who you place your trust in for your vote. Then, that is called a democratic process and even if our preferred candidate losses, at least, it is a fair duel, got it? Never mind if the opposing candidate blatantly uses the influence of money ( Cash is King slogan! ) or goods or even essentials for his/her campaign; the important thing is that you just do your duty as a citizen. 

I am appalled of the low turnout for voting. It is either we are overly concern of the hyped up Covid-19 scare to deter people from coming out to vote or simply assuming the seat is safe for this candidate and that candidate. I’ll tell you what I did on the election morning. I woke very early that morning. I sent my daughter to vote at the nearby centre at a different constituent. It was all done in less than 20 minutes. Then, we proceeded to my voting centre together for another constituent with my wife to vote. The SOP for voting was super relaxed, safe and good. Within 20 minutes, we got our verifications done, collected out voting papers, marked our preferred candidate and both of us were done. It was one of the fastest voting process I have ever done in my life though there was good control of crowd and voting process was early. It wasn’t like in 2018 whereby the crowd was big but very controlled under a very hot sun then.  We weren’t thinking of who is going to win and so on. Sure, we have our own preferred candidates to win but what was important is that we did our citizen’s duty that morning. We casted our votes and that was important. Then we went for breakfast and looking around the noodle shop, we could see so many abled bodies and people enjoying their meals and not even having their fingers marked meaning they have not voted that day. Overhearing conversations that some of them are not going to vote this time sickens me in the gut. These are able young/old bodies. Hey, even the handicapped and the wheel-bound tried their best to cast their votes while these morons won’t even go to the centres. That sickens me that morning.

As we proceeded to the mall as it was our usual way to spend some time as a family, I noted many young people were without markings while there were some older /middle-aged people were without ink dipped fingers. That indicated that they have not voted. I guess, I had to be thick faced and I approached these strangers and normal able bodied folks if they have voted and that they should vote and exercise their right to vote. Though I received dirty looks, unhappy responces and glaring looks, I was undeterred because voting is the right of everyone and every vote counts to make or break for a candidate.  I really did my best that morning and I even made sure that I sent out Whatsapp messages to friends and family in the afternoon to continue to ask their friends and loved ones to go out to vote. I guess, some people just couldn’t be bothered. I wasn’t ashamed to approach strangers as you might have thought because this action of voting will make or break the future of state and country. There is no such thing as protest and no voting or whatsoever. If you don’t vote because of your protest, you are even dumber than the bloody rat on the street as state laws and legislation will continue to be passed whether you like it or not. With voting, we can, at least , put our voice representative in the House via the elected representatives, to prevent unfair, not good laws or even unbalanced laws to be passed. That’s what voting rights does and means – elect a representative who will bring our voices to the House. Look, this is not ideal talking or things that cannot happen,ok? If our elected representatives are not doing their job to represent our voices, we have that power to vote them out the next time and we should.  That is the power of our vote. Hence, it is essentially important for us to go out to vote in the first place. We may say that our vote is only one vote but when the rest joins in, that, my friends, becomes a majority. Think about it diligently, shall we? Yeah, the elected representatives may screw us this time, but the next time around, we will vote him/her out. That’s the power of voting, ladies and gentleman! You are not insignificant as people paint you to be. Singularly, we may not be strong but in mass, unity is strengthened!

Personally, I really felt very sad for our state and nation. It is that ignorance and stupidity to continue to put the same corrupted people into power by giving them our vote of approval that sickened me. The reflection and implications of the election horrendously sickened me. It also appalled me that people, in their whatsoever excuses, chose to sit this one out. It is always a wrong thing to take yourself out when it comes to elections. This time, by choosing to sit out, we virtually allowed crooks, robbers and thieves to creep right back into the administrations and public office. I am appalled that the public still do not realised nor recognised how seriously failed our state and nation are these days. We are billions in deficit and all the “you scratch my back and I will scratch your back” remunerations will kill our society effectively. Sure, these ill-gotten monies and remunerations will help you short term but in the long run, we will all suffer as a society. I am most frustrated. Are we going to accept corrupted ways and corruption as a norm of our lives now? It sure seemed like it! What a perverse generation we are! Our leaders in high places shout at the top of their voices till their blood veins at the necks almost burst, condemning it but in reality, the opposite occurs and occurs to corrupt from the young to the old as if it is a daily thing in our lives! It’s shameful and it’s a disgusting culture! A disgusting culture exists only to make the corrupt and the corruptors stay in power to loot and plunder the state and nation’s wealth to oblivion.   

I guess, that’s the ugly truth of what is happening and totally my own personal view, totally. Whatever your reasoning, I hope you are happy with it now that you have got your wish. So, stop complaining that life is hard or unfair when you are at the coffeeshop or eateries or cafes or anywhere because you are the main reason all these are happening. I am reminded of a story whereby a newspaper publishing house asked the scholar, G.K. Chesterton ,” What is wrong with our world today?” Chesterton simply wrote back and answered, “ ME “. That’s what is wrong with the world today – ME/ YOU! You could have made a difference and what did you do with that opportunity? Well, ABSOLUTELY NOTHING! 

Ladies and gentleman, that’s what wrong with our world today. Evil triumphs when good men/women does nothing! Think about it! However, Hope gives us light and enough reason to continue to fight on, persevere and strive for goodness. Pick up the broken pieces, re-coup, find solutions, encourage and let's start again, shall we? 

Let's re-build our country again and let's be very sure about one thing : Public Enemy No. 1 in this country is CORRUPTION not drugs!  Make no mistake of this! 

Your Vote Counts!

Come 20th November, 2021, the state of Melaka will hold her State General Elections to elect her 28 seats assembly to govern the state of Melaka for the next 5 years. Presently, torrid, fast & furious campaigning from all sides of the front were carried out ceaselessly but with very strict SOP from the Health Ministry, SPRM and even the MKN. Notwithstanding, if you look at the SOP for this state elections, you could have laughed and fall off your seats with some of the idiotic rulings. Sure, the rules are in place to safe guard the people from the re-occurrence of Covid-19 but seriously, who are you trying to kid la….There is definitely the predictable rulings to adversely affect all sides of the parties involved. However, it is definitely not an easy process to carry out a campaign if you are unable to meet with the people. That’s where the multi-media and electronic media platform will come into place. I must say, it is definitely quite interesting to see how these political parties will take part in this election. 

As for the political parties involved in this unnecessary election, it is interesting to note that there are 118 candidates from Pakatan Harapan ( PKR, DAP, Amanah ) , Barisan Nasional ( UMNO, MCA, MIC ), Perikatan Nasional ( Bersatu, Gerakan & PAS ) , Putra , independent candidates and one Indian Muslim Party  (IMAN) are involved this time around. As for the candidates, there are some familiar faces while young stalwarts are definitely at the forefront this time as political parties are moving uptrend towards a blend of young and old. I am most disappointed that I won’t be able to see and hear the “political ceramahs” this time as there won’t be any. I guess, in the last election, I would travel from one place to another to hear the candidates speak of their aspirations and points for the candidacy. So, I guess, it would be quite different this time as ceramah gives you an opportunity to gauge the strength and weaknesses of the candidates. Their body language, their intonations, their presentation of ideas and the way they bring forth their salient political points are the early indicators of what type of leaders you would be expecting. Anyway, of late, I’ve been seeing some campaign ceramahs on Youtube and I must say that the experienced candidates are quite eloquent but the younger ones are not far behind. I guess, there are some rising young leaders which I do find interesting in terms of aspirations, work done so far and their achievements thus far.

For me, I am still very appalled that there are people who will still support a corrupted government. To me, I would be not hesitated twice to vote out a corrupt government without blinking an eye but somehow, there are still people who are of the view that corruption is okay as ALL politicians are corrupted anyway. I begin to think if we, as society, had begun to “accept” such practices in our daily life and lost our bearing and real life compass of our lives. Luckily. I do still find many people hate the thought of corruption in any form in our society today. I believe many of us are against any form of corruption, racism, nepotism and blatant disrespect for the law. All the more for us to cast our votes to vote in a legitimate and good governance government. 

I have said it many times that our country is not poor and our people are a unique blend of people. We are different in our culture, our way of living, our religion and our way of thinking but we are Malaysians. This is our land. This is the place we call HOME.  We must stand up together to preserve goodness, good will and mutual respect for all of us to thrive and survive not just for ourselves but for our future children, grandchildren and generations to come. 

Let us continue to fight against penyamun, penyangak and pencuri who steal our nation’s wealth away and lived like some pompous asses around the world while most of us scrapped through our days with little essentials we have. It is dirty politicians like these that we have to put a FULL STOP! Politicians who get easy money and couldn’t care less about the Rakyat should be voted out. We need to do this by voting these people and out. Really, it doesn’t take a genius to understand this. If we continue to vote these people into office, we are shooting ourselves in our assess every single time. Until and unless we see these people out the door, we would have to continue to vote them out each and every time. True, there is no perfect political party in our country today but we can definitely see ( nor are we so blind !!! )  who are the genuine ones who work for the Rakyat and who are the ones that play lip service only. 

This is not a political rally nor a support campaign. I am fed up of politicians stealing our nation’s money and go SCOTFREE! Aren’t you fed up of such criminals still running around as though nothing has happened even though the courts had found them guilty while many had still court proceedings ongoing? This is truly embarrassing for a nation like ours and there are huge banners that say “Bersama Kami Lawan Rasuah” or “ Abah Sayang Melaka” or “Bersama ke Syurga” ( To be in syurga, you have to die first la, ngok! Who wants to die yet? Pening! Pening! ) when all the leaders on the poster are in one way or another involved in major corruption scandals and mismanagement of the country!!!!!! 

Thereby, I want to exercise that right as a citizen of this country to cast my vote. You should vote too. Please do not let the Covid-19 situation stop you from doing your duty as a responsible citizen of Malaysia. We can always take precaution such as double mask up, face shield and even have a distance so that we can be safe to vote. Sanitize our hands and body after voting while ensuring that we clean ourselves after coming back from voting centres. Do not let evil triumph in this land of Melaka. 

So, I appeal to my fellow orang Melaka@Malaccans, please come out in full force to vote. Your EVERY vote counts in every way. Let’s vote, shall we? 

Thought process.....

There are times, I have often questioned myself if I have lost the ability to pen down my honest thoughts these days. I could never find the words to pen down my actual feelings and yet I am frustrated that I am constantly curbed by the “law, rules & regulations” we have in this country. I feel that my freedom of speech and thought had been bastardised and curbed in order for multimedia trolls to survive in their exploits for their hirers for a fistful of dirty monies! These trolls doesn’t care about the country or the situation we are in. Their main concern is the monies lining up in their pockets when their evil masters get their loots! It is just a damning shame that people are afraid to share their thoughts; all for the fear that they would be hauled up and faced fines for what they say and write. These are serious matters and I grew up having to fight for that freedom to choose, write, speak and even think. “Don’t fight against the tide”, “Don’t even think of writing that”, “Don’t speak like that” etc etc. How many of us had gone through that “age” of control, suppression and oppression of the freedom to speak, write and voice out?  

This “silencing” and curtailing had done a lot of damage to this country. Had it not been the exposing of these horrific financial crimes like the 1MDB and a host of other financial ruins in our country by the brave young men and women in the electronic media, I believe the perpetrators would have gone off scott-free from their crimes. (They are still wriggling their way out of the corruption charges and some have managed to somehow! I hope they burn in eternal hell! ) It really doesn’t matter who runs the government of the day. If they are dirtying their hands in coveting the nation’s purse or kitty bank, they are ROBBERS and THIEVES! We are all Malaysians. It doesn’t matter if that person is a Malay, Chinese, Indian, Dayak, Kadazan, Sikh or whatever, if that person dipped his/her hands into the kitty to rob the nation, they are thieves, robbers and liars. Logically, there is no other names to call these people as I know except aptly known as thieves and robbers.  If we do not fight this despicable act or condoned these robberies and corruptions, we are cowards and traitors to the people who had fought hard and died for this nation. 

The country had suffered so much in financial terms that we are on the brink of collapse! We are too “bodoh sombong” to admit this especially our ruling government to admit that we are on the verge of a financial collapse. I am appalled that we continue to support a government of kleptocrats and power hungry racists that continued to harp on racial issues and religion matters to stay in power. Lest not forget that there are people on the streets tonight virtually hungry and homeless. These are newly evicted families, men and women who lost their jobs and a growing number of people joining the already swelling numbers of homeless and destitute people we have on our streets today. Let us not pretend that these people do not exists because if you walk down the town at 2.00am onwards you will see the tragedies that had befallen these people. Just because you are able to sleep in your comfortable and warm bed with a hearty dinner doesn’t mean that the others are the same. There is this numbing truth that the nation is sinking further into the abyss of hopelessness and dire frustration. Food and shelter had never been an issued with some higher ups but when you lose your job and soon to lose your shelter call home, you tend to realise that the tsunami of reality will hit you like a bullet train in your face. As leaders, are you so dumb to realise this? Everyday survival is the order of the day today. You will never ever look at the humble eggs or the dried noodles in the same way anymore. It is such an integral part of our lives these days! I remember the earlier days when ikan kembong or even ikan selar kuning were just the fish for the day but nowadays even these fishes are even beyond the purchasing means of the poor whatmore the middle income folks. It is devastatingly sad and unthinkable in many ways. Let’s not thread on the poultry and beef matters or else it might end up in some condo somewhere! I remember one moronic leader mentioning that the price of poultry went up because of the expensive price of the chicks!!! I really don’t know where he gets his education from but I strongly believe his Economics teacher would have been rolling in his/her grave for having such moronic student! 

Like I used to say to my friends, we are NOT a poor country. We have ample of agricultural and natural resources to boost our country economy. Our oil reserves , our natural resources like rubber and oil palm including our rice fields and agricultural products are squeezed dead out to the last drop and messed up big time by kleptocrats, robbers and thieves! Maybe the folks in the kampongs could be tricked into believing that our resources are well managed and maintained but the urban folks are not so gullible. These are including the learned, the educated and some portions of the rural areas. The annals of massive corruption, mismanagement, stealing and gains are rampant and demoralizing to our country’s economy. These are blood , sweat and tears of the fishermen, farmers, labourers,  industrial and SME players doing their part for the country and where does it all go? Right into the dirty pockets of the very same fraudster who call themselves people’s representative today. How many more people like this who will be freed from their day at the courts?  

I am baffled at how a government turncoat/spy was not asked of how did that person had come to acquired USD 6million cash in the house but instead the issue was that some of the returned monies were fake! Charges of espionage among others were dropped! OMG! How the hell did a government servant had come to acquire USD6 million should be the No.1 question, man! The corruption cases in Malaysia are truly unthinkable indeed. Look at the massive charges being brought on but virtually the public has lost confidence in the judiciary and the authorities like PDRM, AG Office and even the SPRM for their conflicting views of what corruption or breaking of the law is all about. It is as though these people did not commit any act of corruption in the first place. I am even more appalled when the entire resources were mobilized to track and to nab poor Nur Sajat merely for doing his/her part of alms/donation. Hounded and tracked like an animal, Nur Sajat was finally nabbed in Bangkok. Fulamak! Right in the heart of Thailand, man. When I went to Bangkok about 3 or 4 years ago, Bangkok is like a city that never sleeps while a crowd of people is always noted on the streets. Wow! I must congratulate our authorities for finding Nur Sajat,man. BTW, my question is :- What about the whereabouts of Indira Gandhi’s husband and children? Where is the whereabouts of Jho Low? Where and what happened to Nicky Low? What happened to all the allegations made by the then outgoing Police Chief? Just look at all the charges being dropped at all the corruption charges to the political people?!!! Just look at all the wasteful resources just to nab Nur Sajat. His sexuality is really none of my concern but his liberty and his rights are the concerned of all Malaysians. Wasteful resources and unwarranted abuse just to nab one transgender! Billions and millions had been siphoned off without a fraction of remorse nor guilt in this country. What a country we live in! Surely the pits of hell could not go any lower but it apparently did! I am sure, there will be many more scandals and whatnot coming our way soon enough. 

I am sickened to my arse when I hear some of these politicians speak in our Parliament. There is no real serious effort to help this country grow and strengthened. It is like a gimmick in a circus show! There is simply no seriousness in their efforts to help this country grow. Fielding questions for the sake of answering with no real moves to help out our ailing nation. Except for the efforts to fight Covid-19, basic amenities such as water supply , electricity supply, floods mitigation and natural disasters are still being discussed without a sight of end. I am pretty sure this wasn’t the first time I’ve heard all these issues being discussed and brought to the fore front!  64 years of independence and there are still places in MALAYSIA without clean water supply and electricity supply! What a failed nation we are! I remembered those years when I was serving in a rural area in Sabah, water supply was like teh tarik while electricity supply was like 8 hours -12 hours of the day with frequent trippings and breakdown. Till to date,  I still hear of places with no proper clean water and electricity especially in OA villages and interiors in Sabah and Sarawak. You seek votes and made promises during elections but never fulfilled when votes are casted. Electrical poles are up together with the tele-communications poles are up but the service is not there! You threatened when you lose. You threatened even more when you win.  I sometimes wonder why God would not smite you to death just like the olden days in the Holy books?

People used to say that pay back time in during the GE. However, every damn time the GE is around the corner, there will be many suggestions that we give this government or that government to try to make this country right. My answer is simply this : Take the bloody courage of yours and change the bloody government! Vote for what is right and make a difference. I cannot do it alone but it takes a whole load of us to have that perspective to change the government for the better! We need to punish corruptors, pretenders of justice and that asses of power maniacs. We need to return to the spirit of giving our country a breath of hope and a chance to be a clean government. We should not entertain corruption and religious bullshit at any level. We must ensure that our younger generation knows this and wants a clean nation to start with ; not with saddlings debts and restrainment in their hands. Old, racists, religious bigots and corrupt politicians should go. 

I really look forward to GE15 so that I live to see a real change this time in our country minus the pretentious traitors, alarming schemers, power cartels, religious pretenders and corrupted individuals. GOD save our nation, MALAYSIA!

Mom's Vaccination - DONE!

Seeing mom finishing her 2nd dose of Covid-19 vaccine was the most satisfying feeling of all on Monday,5th July, 2021. I guess, just like any child, I was particularly relieved that at least she got vaccinated and there is some form of protection against this deadly Covid-19 virus which is still going through much mutation. It often makes me wonder how crippled our country had been, together with the rest of the world, when this pandemic hit the nations of the world!

My mom, Tan Ah Moy is 78 years old and she is still very much an alert woman. She is strong mentally but her legs had started to fail her at this stage of her life. I guess, mom’s tenacity each morning of 100 leg lifts had somewhat helped her to be better a bit these days. I was pleasantly surprised that she could walk a good distance but I insisted on using the wheel chair when I wheeled her into the vaccination hall as it would be faster and more efficient. Mom smiled and agreed with me when I told her the logic behind it. She said I was being in my wily side again! Well, I was just doing what was best for her.

You see, mom has always had this side of her that she would no inconvenient us in any way. Even in her pain peak at her legs, she would just walked on and endured the pain. Hmmmnnnn…..somehow, now I know where that stubbornness and high pain endurance ability comes from. Afterall, the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree , right? Anyway, she has been cheerful about getting her Covid-19 vaccine and when I informed her that she would be getting the Sinovac vaccine during her first vaccination, she said it is alright. It doesn’t matter what vaccine was given as long as it is not salt water! I guess, mom is like that – a little “cincai” type. 

This time around , there was more question of how she coped with the 1st dose, any side effects and so on and so forth. Mom was cool and answered calmly that she is okay and ready for her second dose. I was also proud of mom as she is calm and very steady in a sense. I still told her that I needed to put her in the wheel chair so that it would ease our journey to the vaccination booth. She laughed and smiled at my reasoning again. Honestly, the long walk from registration to verification to final vaccination can be quite a walk away for a woman of her age. So, it would much easier to get her on the wheelchair and moved her around. I must say that the frontliners working at the vaccination centre are really professional people. They had ensured that everything is in order and ensure smooth transition from one counter to another. I must thanked them for really taking the trouble to ensure that everything is in place and running with machinery smoothness. In all honesty, you could see the fatigue creeping on them but they just shouldered on. Patiently explaining , questioned and even ensuring that all data are correct before the administering of the vaccine. I am extremely thankful for the dedication, care and hardworking in ensuring the smooth running of the vaccination process.

As I walked mom to the vaccination booth, two nurses had readied the vaccine and politely asked me to leave the booth so that one of the nurses could administer the vaccine. I did so politely but at the corner of my eye, I wanted to make sure that mom got her dose. I guess, I was just being paranoid in a way but I just wanted the best shot for mom. Who wouldn’t want it that way for their moms , right? Luckily, I came to my senses that I shouldn’t be doing this as these are professionals and they should know what they are doing. So, I just averted my gaze away from the cloth opening and prayed that mom would be in good hands. Within minutes, the vaccination is over and I managed to wheeled mom out of the booth. I immediately asked mom if she was alright. She quipped, “ No pain at all. Everything is good.” I was happy for her and went to another counter to get the registration of the full vaccination digital certificate and finally the required “sit and rest” area.  We posed for photographs at the vaccination stand before heading put of the centre. Before we left, a small crowd has started to gather at the centre for their vaccination shots.  More people are now getting the vaccine shots. 

In all honesty, I wished more centres could be opened up for quicker vaccination. I am really hoping that people at the outskirts and the inner sanctum of the country would be able to get their vaccination. At this pandemic and difficult times, the Health Ministry should be getting into these inner places and areas to administer to the people their vaccine shots.

Just glad and relieved that mom had had her shots done and completed. What a relief, indeed! I am often reminded by this wise old saying : “ A mother can take care of 10 children but not all 10 children can take care of one mother.” So, take care of your father and mother especially at this difficult times and at all times!

White Flag - Enough!

Bombarded with further bad news of what is happening to our beloved country, I went to bed restless and troubled though the lure of watching the Euro 2021 match between Germany and England seemed to be the easiest escapism I could get but somehow I simply bypassed that as I thought of all the children in this nation of ours who would have gone to bed hungry that night.  What a devastating thought that totally rocked my conscience and my whole soul being indeed. As I tossed and turned early this morning, I could not help feeling the experience I had gone through as a child ( as I am the eldest ) and though we seemed happy enough to get through our childhood, I knew from an early age, how much my dad had to go through just to feed the three of us. ( my younger brother, sister and I ) Illiterate, hardworking and patient, Dad would always ensured that we have food on the table. At times, we had porridge with lots of water and salted fish as our best accompanying dish but we roughed it through. Other times, it would be the faithful salt or soya sauce. I could never forget the day when I overheard Mom telling my Dad one day that we have had no rice left in our rice bin. Mom made coffee that evening and we had some scraps of white bread for our dinner that night . As children, we never complained and we went to bed hungry but we understood it all because we knew what position we ( my siblings and I ) were in. That night after everyone had slept, I heard Dad cried softly as he slept inside our house corridor. I knew because I slept together with him at the corridor. That etched on my head and heart for a long time and I would never ever forget that as it is a reminder for me to understand in all humbleness what it meant to go to bed hungry and the humble ability to provide for your family always. You see, you cannot hide the stomachs rumblings even when you are asleep. It would growled loud and often no matter how you tried to hide it. Ever been in such position before? If you have, you would understand exactly what I am saying.

Today, the Covid-19 figure stood at 6,276 affected and 62 deaths! There is not a day that I pray that the figure would fall but the figures don’t lie, ladies and gentleman. What is wrong with our authorities?!!! I believe, the Rakyat had  been very patient and very accommodating in ensuring the success of the MCOs (PKP) and the "Stay at Home" call but there are still durian parties ( cornered, documented proof and analysis - CSI also lose, man! Then finally "admitted" !! )  and blatant disregards of SOPs and MCO restrictions among the VIPs and “the so-call rich & famous.” For crying out loud, people are dying and getting affected! People are hanging themselves due to economic woes and people are suffering mentally, economically and socially. Which part of people dying that you idiots do not understand? Are these lives “less important “ than yours because they don’t fall into your pay grades or status? Are you forgetting that there is a heaven and earth? Are the people/rakyat a play thing or a play pawn in your games of thrones and play of power? These are lives,man. The rakyat is painfully driven to a corner like a rat cornered to the edge of the wall. You, the VIPs sits high and mighty on your personal thrones and pedestal with unaffected salary and allowances and yet, you scorned, make fun, mocked and shamed the public by asking them to pray rather than hand out food and necessities for the rakyat! I want to remind you so-called caliphs of religions or religious bigots that Yes, it is important for us to pray to God for His provision but it also must be followed by the action to provide to his people. Have you heard “words without action is dead?” Most certainly, my faith tells me so.

What is the use for us to say to a hungry man “ Don’t worry , brother.  I know you are hungry. I will pray for you.” But give out nothing to the man and left him to die of hunger. Therefore, my answer to you is get the hunger man some food first so that he could LIVE! I am sure, the first thing he would do is to give the food to his children and wife. That is the heart of a good man. If you tell him that you would pray for him without providing anything to him, you are the murderer of his children and his family! Gosh, Oh My God! We have such a cruel and evil people in our government today. This is the worst of the worst of human beings! People hiding behind the religious robes and proclaiming that it is better to pray! Isn’t it better to provide for the needy rather than getting the funds in the poor people’s fund being channeled into the corrupt pockets and annals of corruptors? It makes me mad seeing such things happening in our nation.  Wake up, you clowns! People are pressed to the very end and people are really dying. The other day, a friend send me a Whatsapp message of a man committing suicide at the pedestrian bridge in town and then another sent me a message of another suicide at the parking shade of a hypermarket. Such is the hopelessness people are feeling about this country of ours under this sickening administration. I want to say barbaric administration but I guess, I would rather stick to some “kindness” or I would mencarut freely as I usually do. The other day, a friend sent a picture of a single mother who had lost all her income due to the lockdown for about a year plus now and seeking help. I immediately did my part and gave what I could without hesitation though I am a retiree now. I thought nothing but about her children who could go to bed hungry that night. I guess, I didn’t have to “ wait and pray” about it, right? Niamah! Insolent idiots of the highest level! 

The Rakyat is already very patient in a lot of matters. Please stop scamming the Rakyat.  You can still get away by scamming the orang kampongs, illiterate and poor but you cannot do it all the time.  This I-Sinar, I-Lestari and I-Citra is just another financial jargon as far as I am concerned. Maybe it should be followed by I-Burit and I-Cirit later on! Look, this “I” funds comes from where? It comes from our old age fund in the EPF ! In the first place, this is rightfully our money! Our hard earned blood, sweat and tears money! These help is not even from the government but from our own money! So, tell me, financial geniuses, which part of these monies are government money? This is money from our hard earned sweat , blood and tears! Monies for "our hari tua!" There is this saying, “ You can lie to some people at some time, but you cannot lie to all the people all the time!“.  Taking out our own money is our right, to be exact. It is our money in the first place! Where is the money from the government fund? May I ask, where is the help fund from the government? Not even a shred of money! All squandered away in high salaries of 70 ministers and the failed government itself and channeled out through the annals of corruption and corrupt practices. Don’t you ,as leaders, have a conscience? These are people’s hard earned monies for their old age and to be used in their old age. That too you want to whack their money and sapu licin leaving nothing for their old age? Have a heart la…..we will all grow old one day and this is the only monies we have for our old age. Dosa besar curi duit orang kita yang akan tua ini, yunno. Dosa besar! Dosa yang tak boleh diampuni!

Then the fiasco of loan moratorium next. Enquiries with banks revealed that you still have to pay your loan interest later. Meaning it is dragged further in your loan repayment period! The only difference is that the compounding interest should not be charged for “late payments”. So, Mr. Finance Minister , can you care to explain to the people how does that benefit us as rakyat with car loans, business loans etc etc.? This steps definitely help “eased” us in a way by prolonging the loans but at the end of the day, we still have to service the interest. It takes us longer to pay up and nothing changes and the banks are still smiling away as they did not lose anything at all! So, you see, you care only of the banks pockets but not the rakyat. So, don’t say you serve the rakyat in your pledge! It is an embarrassment indeed. Likewise, there is no money involved from the government again. At the end of the day, the rakyat had to tanggung everything again! Adoi! Kepala pening seeing such failed government Ministers! Luckily, I still have some sense of logic of continuing to service my loans despite being told of the moratorium. Right now, the word moratorium sounds like crematorium to me! 

Another thing I cannot tahan is one of our of “bright” minister asking the public to get money from licensed money lenders if they feel they need money! Tunafishmadder! It is like asking the public to die early and jump off building faster! This is the most reckless statement I’ve ever heard from a woman Minister! I can accept “drink warm water”, “make Doraemon voice” and “play bodoh-bodoh to get husband” and some of the most ridiculous things I’ve heard in my life but this is the worst of the lot. It only shows the level of mentality of our Ministers. It is virtually asking the rakyat to go to the “Along”. What will they think of next? Promote Pajak Gadai Shop! Wait! Wait! They are already thinking of that, isn’t it? Or asking people to go to betting houses to put their money on Euro 2021 football bets! BLM ( I am really sorry! I really am! Hainanese swear word! ) Life is hard enough la..….Please give solutions not solutions that will lead you to jump off buildings!!! Please call upon the think tank of the country to come up with better solutions! 

That’s why I am particularly irked at where has all the monies and richness of our country had gone. The reserves we are so proud of to proclaim. Where are they? Siphoned, stolen and even channeled somewhere….God knows where. I am terribly upset and angry at where this country is heading. The attitude and level of “bodoh sombong” is extremely high that it chokes the very society we live in. 

I joined the movement amongst the rakyat and raised my ‘White Flag” telling the authority of the day that I am fed up with you and fed -up of your antics of stupid arrogance ( bodoh sombong ) and lack of transparency! It is not a sign of surrender or retreat but rather giving up on their inhumane ways and selfish thinking ways! Cukup dah!

I promise that I will do my best to help out fellow Malaysians who are in need at this hour of despair and difficult times. If you raise a white flag in your house compound and if I see it, my wife and I will get you the groceries and do what we can to ensure that your children and your family will not go to bed hungry. Yes, we may just be retiree and we may have little but the little that we have will be given because our God says so and our hearts say so. No pictures, no hesitation, no fuss! 

So, Malaysians, care to join me ?