Ah!

Is there no honour nowadays anymore in our lives? What does it means to "win at all cost" despite knowing you are no more respectable nor wanted? What does it mean to "lie, cheat & steal away" the people's trust and honour just to stay alive in power and for the mere survival of the family? I am generally reminded by John Maxwell's very apt quote which says " Absolute power corrupts absolutely! ". I guess, when the head of the family is corrupt and manipulative , it will be very obvious that the family will follow suit as monkey see, monkey do, right? 

I am always appalled when people who sits at their own personal throne in the local church constantly misused and quote scriptures for their own benefits and safe their own skins, so as to speak. I call this spiritual manipulation and cowardice of the highest level.  It doesn't take a genius to say it out loud that this is spiritual fraud and death but nevertheless an injustice to the already flimsy world that we live in today. It is easy for us to thump our chest and say that I did no wrong, but just my leadership style when in actual fact, the stench of filthy mismanagement ways, intimidation, fear tactics with the use of equally brainless muscles who are half-baked potatoes in their spiritual walk and putting their filthy hands in the church coffers plus knowingly concealed information of sexual predatory acts & filth on children in so-called Children's Home repulsively repel me of such individuals who claimed to be "righteous" in their own eyes.   Of course, we also have clowns and so-called counsels who had helped them "grow" big enough and when they could no longer appease the monstrosity of these ways, they started to think that what they have done all these years were fraudulently crazy and lenient. Grace and being graceful, you say?  Grace, my foot! It's called pure stupidity, selfish and evidently weak leadership. Well, smell the roses! It's too late because monsters will breed female monsters, boyish imps and eventually goblins for that matter. Ah...it is the world we live in these days as we continually blame it on the Evil one or conveniently put the blame on the evil one when the real culprits are the ones inside that four walled building or even the ones that will not stand up to be counted  that we hide our wrong doings and called it pervertedly good. These so-call leaders diluted the message and the righteous teaching so much that even the roadside drink seller would be so repulsive that he would close shop just to mourned the death of his profession. Yeah, these so-called leaders of leaders  had sold out the people, the community, the society for a fistful of ringgits, populist messages, building contracts, food contracts, "I need to use the hall to have my son's/daughter's wedding"  and even the " I scratched your back and you should scratched mine" schemes! It is not even surprising to hear that even a monumental Korean spiritual leader gets 3 years imprisonment for putting his dirty paws in the church kitty and coffers thinking it is right all the time. Well, I've got news for emulators/ worshippers or even leadership followers of this Korean disgraceful mentor - your turn is next. It may take weeks, years or even a decade but it'll come - this life or the next. That's for sure!!    

I will not mince my words just to say what I want to say. I will say it with conviction in my heart that I am very sad but at the same time cynically happy that finally everyone including those who gave me flowery names over the years;  could finally see the "real Devil" in some of these so-called shepherds in wolves clothings. I am not the least worried as pack of buffooning wolves huddled together , brandishing threats after threats plus pouring out scorn for even the Bible tells us that in the end days, evilness will flourish for a while. Guess, these people just proved the point and joined the pack of blundering jackals as well and we all know well enough where they will land.....eventually. All I can say is REPENT, you blundering buffoons! Stop talking of forgiveness and grace when you don't even know the basic meaning of these words lest you make it such a filthy word. Why? We need to forgive and forget so that you can still stick your filthy fingers, hands and legs into the coffers and use it for the extension of the family rather than God's kingdom again? Plus cry wolf till the sun comes down every freaking time someone points out the wrongdoings?

To the innocent sheeps and even ewes that were caught in the crossfire of mentally retarded and obnoxiously distasteful actions, pick up your feet and move out of this hell hole of deceitful, lying and corrupt institution of faith. Go to another place down the street or even take a rest for a while as you contemplate your decision to move. Forget about sentimental feelings. Forget about my children grew up here or I was married here or my son intend to marry here or even, I met my wife/husband here feeling. When your spiritual needs are not met, how do you grow spiritually? To me, that is spiritual death. I may not be a man with a certificate from Bible school nor a scholar from overseas or even a knowledgeable man like most of you are but I know enough to know that to hinder me to be happy with my Father in heaven in whatever way is a block to my walk with Him each day and a blatant disregard for my communication with my Father in Heaven.

It's doesn't matter if you need to go away for a few weeks but free yourself from such ridiculous bondage whereby you have no spiritual infilling at all. Just admit to yourself if you had been spiritually fed all these years? If you could not answer that very fundamental question of whether there had been a day whereby you were spiritually fed, it is time you get fed in the Word minus the fanfare of "flowery" message nor a "feel good" message. Take the bold step to walk down that street and hear the genuine praises & worship coming from the other places of worship. Go and have your heart filled with His Joy again. If you are hurting and nursing a bruising and bleeding encounter - fight no more. Pick up your mat., walk away, take the walk and seek the genuine joy. He will fill your heart again like He did to mine when I was wrecked, bruised, bleeding, torn and even shamed in so many ways. Every inconceivable name was given to me but I kept my faith while my family and I walked many halls of praise & worship. I am mightily glad that good caring friends helped us through and the balm of healing from His hands that matter to me and my family. 

I say the same thing to you, let God's balm of healing heal your hurt heart but never walk again on that very corridors that brought nothing but deceit in your life. A leopard doesn't change its spot nor a tiger changes its stripes no matter how it cajoules you or cry of repentance or court you with sweet words for it is still a wild animal with an inborn instinct to eat you no matter how friendly it is to you.

I say all this with no malice intended. Walk away and start anew at a new place. I am happy at where I worship today. It is not the religious institution which I am concerned of. It is the wayward, decaying, spiritual manipulative make-believe so-called shepherds that lead it and the people who are still in support of such nonsense that concerned me.

I am constantly reminded to write good and positive feedback in respect of our faith and our belief system. Believe me, I still do but sometimes the truth ,no matter, how ugly, painful and shameful had to be told too. We just cannot take the good stuff without wanting to know the bad stuff, right? We have to responsible in saying the ugly truth too eventhough people generally are more at ease with the good stuff. Well, to me, we can only move forward and learn from such events. Wouldn't you agree?  God bless you , people!

BTW, there are still many wonderful, good and God-fearing shepherds out there who had done some magnificent works for the people.....you are still honored, respected and rightly blessed. That's for sure!